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Im an ass....
Dude okay I am an ass Im afraid that I was bitchy to Roxy over the phone. She called at the wrong time and I think got the bitchiness that she didnt deserve. The thing is that I was pissed because my dad and uncles took my car without asking and when I go to leave for my game tonight low and behold my car wasnt there. What kinda crap is that? But see that wasnt the only thing they were working inthe garage and parked my car outside last night while they worked but when they finished they didnt put it inthe garage and on Thursdays is the day that the gardeners come so my car is sitting there getting all the dust and crap blown all over it, it was clean and I thought I wouldnt need to wash it but now, ugh, ok relax. So yeah I had to haul crazy ass over to my game and I was so pissed because to top it off I had to stop for gas. So yeah Poxy catches me as I was gonna leave to ask if I wanna go out with her and Eugene, Im sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! On the really Im so sorry. As for the rest of the day , um yeah. Tomarrow is Friday I wish I could be a lil' more excited dont have much planned. I dunno I think I got some residual pissyness and Im feeling bad about the whole roxy thing and nuttins really changed since yesterday. Yuck. Damn .
posted by Shaistie at 11:43 PM

 
It's been one of those...
Yeah it's been one of those days, maybe it's only me that has them but for the hell of it humor me if it is. Dunno I just been feeling lonely. Not lonely for friends cause they're all great, but the other lonely. Felt not so super today but between my less than super self and Roxanne's tiredness we made for a couple of jokes that helped. I think I cause Roxy to be a slacker and skip the thing her class was going to (it was a rally) and we stuck around the courtyard area thingy where Target took over and saw people actin' a fool for an XM radio and TV( okay I admit it would of been spiffy to get the TV). Got a couple of laughs from the random landings on complete strangers' laps and the dives people took. But I felt this crazy weight inside and I know why. It's only been a month. I hate this. Im worn out. And Roxy stop trippin'..... Saw Sam, which is a lil' like "speaking of the devil" always got something random to say but got a laugh out of it, he always seems to be in a good mood. My mind is elsewhere, hard to concentrate I'll aim for more next time...
posted by Shaistie at 11:47 PM

 
Happy Belated Ass Grabbing Day
Course this woulda been helpful to all of you Yesterday giving you the excuse to grab someone's tooshie, Or wait do you even need an excuse...Roxy.... LoL Im a fuckin comedian... Nah I didn't do any ass grabbing myself so yep so much for that right? Nuttin much to say really same ol same just doing my one day at a time, Mr. Sunshine where are you? Please....
posted by Shaistie at 10:56 PM

 
What would you do....
I was at work and I heard "what would you do....." and I started thinking about high school all over again. In particular ceramics class where I got countless what would you do's from Sam that kept me laughing at their randomness. Sam's always good for a laugh or throwing a forty at your professor's head , not only will he be drunk but knocked out too. You dont notice it much how time has gone by and how we all evolved a lil'. But then again there are some things that never change and that's okay too. I guess I took a moment to ruminate over things like this. I had some good times in high school and those are the things that make me long for days past. I guess the strain of everyday is gettting to me and making me feel old for some reason.
Well todays blog will exit with a thanks to Roxy for helping me with the fly incident, not one word.... I think it happens to everyone. Nah I think only me.... But yeah I digress---> Had to put that one in for the Bahjeebus of it.... One final question at random what makes an M&M sexy? You got me on that one, could be the eyelashes on the green one, wait that sounds kinda gross who wants to find eyelashes on you green M&M's. Weird topics of converstaion that I should never take part in, Just walk away *shakes head*..... Tired. Shit load to do still. Peace.
posted by Shaistie at 11:29 PM

 
The President did it is not a vaild excuse...
Dunno I saw it on the simpsons at 11pm and thought it was funny. Nuttin much to say really. Got new just the usual. But I got a question if you were to clean out your car right this second how much crap, er stuff would you find? Dunno My car doesnt have much. I think just towels to dry excess water, damn puddles, and the insurance papers, cds. Not much to clean up really. I thought of this nifty one after an interesting convo with one of my friends over the stuff they found intheir car after cleaning it. Sweaters, a 1994 calendar, That damn lipgloss that she swore she told me to hold over a year ago (yup uh huh where was it? That's what I thought) , Nail files, Organizer, cheese grater (you got me on this one), a bagillion zip lock baggies, 2 basketballs ( near deflated), a golf club ( though she doesnt or has ever attempted to play golf) three sets of keys that she has no idea wht they open, how she obtained them let alone remembers the keychains... the list is quite extensive but I'll stop there. he funny thing about it is that her car isnt in a state of disarray in the least bit. Dunno where she had all this ish but it was in there. Hidden compartments? That's so 007, ok Im lame whatevers. But yeah we had a good laugh over it.
Lets see Im also looking forward to the new 112 Cd dunno I have all three of the previous ones those are my jams right thur. I think Carl thomas is also about due for another album too. Anyway I should get back to my Homeworkee ya heard I havent been sleepin well in the least bit so yeah gotta go handle this and then try and get me some zzz's.

Think of other things Shai, and hope the sun aint too far away.................
Thanks Willy.
posted by Shaistie at 11:58 PM

 
Hey hey hey or should I say Ner ner ner....
Either way Im a bum right Roxy? Yeah I've been gone for a lil' while. let's see I guess I can start by saying that Im not so bitter as I was on Wednesday but those are the tpes of things that always keep me feeling so damn insecure about myself. I knowt hat I really shouldnt care as much but admittingly so it bothers me and it makes me feel that much worse about myself. Okay now for the weekend:
Well I was invited to Kevin's party that he was having because his mom was not home I dunno the specifics but yeah. Well the whole icehouse didnt work out and if you heard the "the Icehouse burned down story" it's not really true it was that we simply couldnt make reservations to accomodate the group of 16. Okay I liek the Icehouse burned down story a lil' better just cause it makes it sound a lil more I dunno strike that never mind Im sounding a tinge psycho and that's completely unecessary to reaffirm everyones suspicions of it. Yikes! But yeah any way sorry about the whole Ice house but we'll give it another go soon. Anywho I went to Citywalk with Alys' and that was fun. Had a Hot dog and talked about the crazyness of the world in our usual jumpiness ended walking up and down the place that I lost track of how may times we went back and forth. But that's not important Right Krystal? Lol. Well before we knew it I was trippin out about the lack of people and that the stores were closing and then I look at the time and it was midnight. Where did the time go? Alys' checked and yp it was well into midnight . Time flys. But yeah I ddint go to kevins' and Im feeling a tiny bit bad but the things is that it got moved and there was gonna be less people. Oh wells I had a super time with Alys' . One thing though there's traffic on the 101 at 1:00 a.m ? LOL the scenic route home. Good times.
Saturday Damn, antoher full day. I went to work came home changed pants and my mom had ironed my shirt that I took on the hanger, super, and then we were on our wayto a wedding for our catering. We were going to work at a certain celebs house but then they need more people at the wedding. The bride was simply beautiful she had a glow about her. Sigh. Shake the ideas outta my head but yeah it was all very nice but hella and yes I said hella busy. I dont wanna see another apple nor pear for awhile but it all went pretty smoothly. Personally though I was pretty scurred on the way there, Yeah the way over there werent the safest of ways. Can you say cliff ,lonely,wind-y, your fucked.IT was worse on the way home at 3:00 a.m. cuz thats when i got off. It was beyond dark NO lights but the headlights , foggy as a mother------. and not to sound repetitious but cliff, lonely, wind-y, you fucked. Oh and there were coyotes as a final touch. Anyway the only thing that went wrong at the wedding was the fact that they had to shuttle guest up there and the D.J was a retard and announced that the shuttle was now departing and about 40% of the guest left before dessert could be served. But ither than that I think things were super. Well I als o got the most amazing roses in an absurd amount. The flower arrangement were for our taking at the end of the night. I got a very nice looking one, very beautiful and that's all I got because I didnt wanna look all greedy and take more. There's a very nice waiter that works there maybe two or three years older than me in business school well he went and got me many more roses and I thought it was a terribly nice gesture, so now I have theses amazing flowers in part thanks to him. He really is fun to work with and always so nice to me.
Sunday well I got maybe an hour of sleep and then headed off to work adn then came home to rest for about an hour or so and then I had to study for a test nice huh. Soyeah no sleep really but Im hangign in there. Busy busy.
Today Monday well yeah I took my test . I hung out with Roxy during our break and I got my apple and cookie that I hadnt had for awhile oh and we'll go to Jamba Juice on Wednesday Roxy wink wink. Im tired.
I was thinking though. I haev been thinking. It got a lil' ou there on Friday but didnt get too muchinto it cuz it was suppose to be a fun night. I'd ask why am I so damn defensive but then I alreday know the answer to it. This all ties into the whole I never tell him fully the really on my feelings for him. Im always afraid of doing so. I so badly want to tell him but at the same time I dunno how to explain it , maybe that my feelings will be taken for granted, But then my better judement tells me he's not that type of person. I know why it takes me long before I can get to trust a person but I wish that it could be something that I work on. Either way the flutter he gives me I wouldnt trade for the world. Tomarrow is tomarrow so let's see what it brings.....
posted by Shaistie at 11:49 PM

 
Unpretty...
Why do you have to remind me everyday of this? There's always something wrong. Always something wrong. Dammit dont you think I know this, you remind me everyday. Everyday. Dammit every damn day.
posted by Shaistie at 11:48 PM

 
The Snorks!!!! I knew they were real....I ain't trippin'
Thanks to a lil confirmation from Alys' , Yeah I don't mean to sound like I'm gloating but I knew it , they just had to be real. The Snorks lol. Okay okay Im not crazy but if you all think hard enough you too will remember this cartoon too. Look among other treasured cartoons of our day Transformers, Heman, Strawberry Shortcake, My lil' Pony, Rainbow Brite the list is quite interesting. Dont we all love these lil' trips down memory lane, well among them is the Snorks. LOL. Just thought I should let everyone know that Im not crazy. Well now back to studying and yes studying work now. Must be responsible and no Im not kidding. Well if you still have a hard time remembering the Snorks have a looksey here:

http://www.the-snorks.com/

Oh and my flan turned out super. I hadn't made it in like forever but my momma had a crazy craving for it and then hearing this my brother got a nudge for some too so yeah I came home from work to make flan. I still got it.... what a concieted bastard I know but to be honest I hadnt made it in awhile and I didnt have the recipe so I had to make it from memory and scratch.... My achievement of the day.
posted by Shaistie at 11:46 PM

 
I suck!
Yeah I totally let this blog go for a week so yeah I deserve it I suck. School is school . Work is work. Life well why even go into that. Although I have been a bit happier now (reason need not be said) Im finding that Im feeling quite old. Maybe I have just run myself into the ground with all the extras trying to keep myself occupied. I cant say I have been getting the best sleep but at least I am gettin a bit of it so I cant complain so much. Roxanne maybe your right, Im always doing something and never a full day off. Ay. One day I will. Patience, Patience.Im learning Im trying and in the end getting a hang of this patience virtue will be beneficial. Chin up and hope for a better day. Okay post short but I got ass load of ishnit for skool. Im crossing my fingers.

P.S Thanks Roxy for the lil' reminder.
posted by Shaistie at 9:27 PM

 
You should be shanked....Damn that's harsh... (That's for you 'Lys)
Had to place that inthe title especially because I remembered because usually I forget a really good title and it sucks ass because it was really good..... Okay who am I kidding maybe it's funny or good only to me but you all bear with me. But the title goes along with insecurities. Why we have them or why it seems that some people are just blessed and can seem to have none is a mystery. Or maybe they have just learned to like themselves with all their flaws or whatever, me, well Im working on it. It's kinda funny when I sit and think about how I act and how people around me do the same things. For one when it comes to guys, well one in particular Im such a 3rd grader. And even though I know that I should grow up a little I just get thrown into 9 year old mode and get all giddy. I dunno worked a lot this weekend and I'm off to start a new week at school . The whole thing with him has gotten me thinking. Not in a bad way but hearing how he misses people and how there isnt much to do out there is making me think about how it would be if I should decide to go to UNC. But for now I just gotta keep PATIENCE in mind and not get to ahead of myself and enjoy the moment.
posted by Shaistie at 11:37 PM

 
Exhausted but smiling...
Labor day weekend.... Yup... To be honest I started it thinking about how much work it involved and Since He was gone I havent been my happiest. Roxy being the superest person she is went out with me on Friday. We got her food and I enjoyed my first soda in months (by choice I add I've been sticking to water and Gatorade). We headed of to Citywalk and just walked around and had Latte and she had that Orange Juice she just had to have, lol. Had a good time, can always count on Roxanne for a good laugh, thanks so much. Called it a wrap and took her home and then went home.
Saturday, worked 13 1/2 hours (Damn Labor day sales) and then came home to an empty house. Parents went to a quincianera. Text Big for a little while and then text Alyssa a little (she was in Vegas, hope she ahd fun)and then went going out with Roxanne again. Met up with her, Eugene and the Slav. Headed off and spent the rest of the time at Denny's (back to high school but something about unlimited refills on Capuccinos and sodas that was appealing especially after a long day of work except you Roxanne :P just kidding) Well we joked about random ish that as time went on got less and less filtered and got some laughs at the Slav's expense (He set himself up though and that "seductive side ways stare" was good for a laugh or two).
Sunday, Worked 13 hours. Tired, but content with blocking to a certain extent my thoughts. But I got a little surprise when I checked my Cell. Okay not little it was a big surprise. He called me. Okay I got to write it again He called me. Im still a little in disbelief. See pessiistic side took over completely and for one I thought he wouldnt even take my cell number with him. Well I call him because on his voicemail he sounded a little sad. Jitters in my tummy and all, I did. Apparently there isnt much to do in Kansas and it was raining. He wasnt home sick, he just missed the people and things to do. Basketball is doing well and he's working real hard at it. I could sit here and write everything he said but that would be exceedingly long and I got and early morning but I'll juat say that he always has a way of making me feel special, of giving butterflies, of making me blush even over the phone. It's so good to hear him. Even though it'll be 3 1/2 months before he can come home for christmas Im happy right now that he hasnt forgotten me. A little more good news Gizmo is going home from the hospital. Tonight I went bowling with Roxanne (Yup three days in a row but it was great), Agnes ( She's so adorable) Eugene , the Slav and his girlfriend and guess who else CHELI!!!!!!!!!! She brought her brothers and Justina we all hung out. Had some laughs and then around 10 she , her brothers and Justina left. After the lane expired we went to Denny's hung out once again laughed at the Slav's expense. It feels good to smile. *sigh* Now to bed cuz I got work tomarrow.
posted by Shaistie at 1:57 AM