Christmas down , New Year's to go....
Now that I read the title it kinda sounds like christmas sucked or something but I dunno how I feel about this christmas. I guess It's a lot of things but on the positive I got to see some of my friends before hand and gave them their presents and messed a bit with Cheli's new Karoke machine. Laughed a bit about how stupid I really look on film, I mean Im a dork but sometimes you dont realize how bad the problem is oh well. I've been crazy at work and maybe adding to "eh" mood is the stress. Is this how the rest of life is gonna be? Got nice things from the family but I think Im more excited to watch people open their presents instead, does that make any sense? That was fun I've had to do some baking and its just been a full month. I dunno how to describe how Im feeling I mean Im happy to spend time with friends and family but I dont feel much like myself. A bit empty. Maybe Im just a crackhead. But yeah I failed to mention that this one guy I may have mentioned before keeps texting me. (guy at a club that had awkward rythm) texted inviting me and alyss' snowboarding, I know she wnts to go ( not sure with them though) but she wasn't here for christmas . Most recently asking what we're doing for New year's. Of course I dont have plans I never have plans for New Year's. It's my dad's birthday and I feel like such a bastard leaving. If I go anwhere it's after my parents go over to their friends house or they went to bed lol, exciting aint it? But this year particularily I have no plans at all even for afterward ( and so the sad realization that I have no life drops on me like a cold shower on a winter day ---wait who am I kidding I act like Im suprised , stop frontin') . Dunno whether it's good news or not but Kevin doesnt seem so "bitter" ( I need a better word I'll think of something.) Any way he seems a lot more friendlier. DOnt remember if I wrote it before but I was thinking he was ignoring me because I didnt return two of his calls but there was 2 reasons for : I was in a no reception in the middle of mountains area and I was at work ( at the same time) an I didnt get any of my calls messages until 3 a.m. Anyway I've seen him a couple of times comin in or out of the gate so at least I now he's not ignoring me anymore. I hate being seen a mean person . But I know roxy and I 'member what you said. Um what else.... well I passed all my classes even geology, I thought I bombed the final I guess it wasnt so bad, I still got a "B" in the class. I'll be 21 in almost 3 months,still feeling like people are doing so much more and Im falling behind although I am very happy for them. But for now I gotta find a path and unfourtunately I still cant sleep well.
posted by Shaistie at 11:53 PM
Ya know X-games kinda shit .....
Yep delusions of grandeur and maybe I am a legend in my own mind. Okay moment is over c'mon I aint got the self confidence to believe all of that but I'll explain myself. I took the day off yesterday yeah I know what a rebel nah not even but fuck it I've been looking forward to going snowboarding all year, whole conversations would revolve around it and hey Roxy youdidnt bust your leg before goin' (insert a high five here). Anyway we got to Mountain High and it wasnt really that cold at all and the bestest part was that there werent that many people. We do good work. LOL I think Im the only one that got that. I felt bad for cheli she took some hard falls. Snow was a lot harder so I ended up sore as hell and my left wrist was hurtin. I had a super time. Roxy was boarding almost naked (okay so I exaggerated she wasnt wearing a jacket but really it got hot kinda quick). Eugene forgot his jacket. oh but Slav took the cake on this lil' trip. Both Slavs Eugene and I were gonna get on the lift so eugene says "go" meaning move forward and get ready to move up once the people before us get on. Well he thought it meant get on the lift now (he really isnt the best direction follower poor kid lol) did I mention that the people in front of us were 4 people (only four fit) So he moves up the chair is right behind him, a girl from the people before us dives out of the way and so does a guy and falls down the lil' slope and slav gets on with the two other people. It was the funniest thing not to mention how awkward that conversation had to have been, although they never showed signs of pushing him off. I did a couple of jumps ( not x games ish but if you wanna humor me imagine it to be a crazy x-games jump) I was so excitied though a jump is a jump. Well anyway I would write more but Im tired and sore and I wanna lay down somewhere so before I go I wanna say Happy Birthday to my brother, kid is 17 now yep they grow up. So yeah totally high five him. Much luv to ya kid.
posted by Shaistie at 11:58 PM
Happy Birthday Brissa
Brissa oh brissa what would I do without you. I hope that today and everyday is filled with a world of happiness for you. Aww, now your 21, your old lol. I'd say dont drink and drive but I think you know where Im heading with that.... Thanks for being so understanding and always lending an ear to my ish and coming with me on some crackhead adventures. I know we dont see each other as often but it never seems to matter cause it always seems like yesterday. But a'ight I hope you have the most superest time and I definately owe you dinner, your pick, mmmm, mmmm..... Happy birthday gurl I lovez ya!
posted by Shaistie at 11:17 PM
eh...
Well finals are finally over and it looks like I can finally sleep in the bed that I havent seen in over a week (chairs dont make good beds, maybe for a little while until your leg falls asleep). Dont feel so good about my Geology final though that was crap and maybe I should of busted out with a tinge of flirtyness nah there's soooooooo many things wrong with that that um no how about no just no. Anyway term papers are in test are done and yeah I can finally say it's a wrap... So now that I've moved that out of my head now what do I do about time? I haev no idea as of yet when he's coming home and yeah Im the first one to tell me not to think about it but yeah we know where this is going. Okay before I get into that I have to gripe about some tings here goes and maybe just maybe it'll fix the world ( okay that's a bit delusional but I haven't fully recovered from my lack of sleep) Here goes:
* Talking in normal "have you seen my keys" tone inside a library. C'mon really let's go over proper library
etiquette 101 for those who failed to read the damn sign: People are studying there fore they came to
to find quiet for concentration, I dont think I'm being anal to be bothered by your marketplace voice.
* Turn off the Damn cell phone! going back to point one with library etiquette and even slide it over to
movies, your ringtones are cute , but really not te place. Her shoe size is an 8 write it down take a
picture sheesh do you need to call 10 times to ask the same shit?c'mon on the for really...
* For all you shoppers. Really now, Shirts are folded and are put out in piles smallest to largest. Is it really
necesary to unfold 2 piles worth leave half of them on the floor to end up either taking the one you first
picked up or not taking one at all ?
* Get your kids tutors or something. Not gonna run around after your kids, nope. Im about to start
passing out those nifty-ass leashes. Harsh I know maybe it's the stress talking but if you got kids take
care of them no one else is gonna make this a pleasant time for you and me, better yet if you can leave
your kids with a babysitter at home, (super markets are not good family trips) no you do not need to
grandma, your three cousins, kids, wife, her best friend and kids and the dog to buy some ketchup.
* Drivers: IF your going 55 MPH why do you feel the need to block the car pool lane? No I dont wanna
hear it there's no excuse, just shhh.......
There's more to come, trust me...... Anyway I am "random -shit" prone. i.e. one of the days I was studying in the library a guy out of nowhere and hands me a christmas card. Although it was a very nice gesture and that's never happened to me before it is on the random -shit side, knocking on "what the hell?". But anywayIm going to miss school a little I guess Im just to damn sociable that I need people. Its a relief though fuck finals and now I digress.
I've been getting by. On the scared side. Stressed. Sore. ay, you know what that's nothing new, I think now that shools done my thoughts are just , maybe I should digress now too. December. Well tomarrow is another day.......
posted by Shaistie at 2:37 AM
In the mood for a huge amount of nothing.....
Yep finals week is almost here. Amazing shit really. I've had very little sleep (insert shocked look here)as I went through the painful process of writting a 15 page term paper. By this point we've all mastered the are of bullshiting to add an extra paragragh or two. But really theres really only so much that you can write. So.... yeah I hope that my paper doesnt smell too much , okay that was lame but I think that good work was done, yep. I think Im just burnt. My final for the same class has been moved to this Thursday instead of the Thursday next week during lets say FINALS WEEK. what kinda crap is that? An in class final on the world's ish load of shit. Im frustrated and the stress of work is just piling up on me, ugh. Kill me kill me.
Thanksgiving went well. Food food and more food. Went to Alys' had some more food, made an ass out of myself playing guesstures, yeah there's nothing more rewarding than hearing "Standard Television" blurted after your acting. Yep, good times good times. This was all after the crazyness that comes from the whole after thanksgiving sales. I like people. I like people..... I like people.... Kid leashes=good. Worked , worked, worked. Oh and too add to my sickness I get my monthly visit from aunt flo. Hey some lightning and we can call it a day. I've been overly critical of myself. Just so disatisfied at what the mirror reflects. Insecurities I guess or maybe it's my aunt flo talking.
It's december....
posted by Shaistie at 11:28 PM
