Lately....
I've been gone. Gone away from the blog but I dont think Ive had the courage to write. I know that makes little sense. I have made choices and through my own choice ( redudancy) a lot has remained to myself. So I have to say Im losing my gift of changing the subject it's completely obvious when I do so. So let's see what's happened to me. I met up for a movie with an old friend J I hadnt seen him in awhile although emails were exchanged it's not the same. So it was a good time except there comes a point when you realize that it wasnt such a friends going to a movie night, not that anything happened but I dont think Im at a good point to go there, well he'll be leaving come Nov. and although I've been offered an amazing gift from him, emotionally not good timing. Let's see what else Im a lil excited Rom' will be coming home soon. I've been thinking and maybe in the next months my life wont be such a mess. Im hoping that I will have a clear head and that I will be able to ease my way on my way again. These last months, year hasnt been the easiest and well I need to take a good friends advice and take it one day at a time. Im not alright right now. But Im trying. I think I gotta learn some things over again, remember some, seperate definately seperate. I cant be afraid. Rom' is trying I think I've just closed myself up for so long that I dont allow for anyone to get close but as I think about it and maybe. I think that what I like and appreciate so much is that he makes me smile. This has been and will continue to be a slow process but one day at a time. Sometimes i get so mixed up but for right now I need to fix the damaged me and get back to a good place.
posted by Shaistie at 10:46 PM
We be clubbin'...
Labor day weekend cant be all work.... Or so I decided well technically I didnt want to think and well I was sure that it'd be fun, so I get off of work ( yeah I had a damn 14 hr day and 8 the night before) and I call Bris' and ALys' and well I lil convincing was needed for Bris' ( her leg was only cooperating when it felt like it Brissa take charge, the leg doesnt control you.... okay lame I know) Anyway we meet up at Bris' house and we drive up to the White Lotus and XES ( yes that is SEX spelled backward nice huh?) Anyway we , as in Aly and me decide that Bris is making the decision to pick either the white lotus or xes (we did park on Xes' side though) OKay but then I technically interfered with the decision and well we had to cross the street to get to whit lotus. ALl the while I was hoping that it wouldnt suck that night or I wouldnt hear the end of it. You know acyually the wierd thing is that we didnt opt for the scientific method of picking ( flipping a coin... lol) So this one guy gets us into the club, there was a wait yuck but anyway we got in and we were having a good time. The funny or wierd or odd or completely huh momnent of the night is that we ran to a teacher we had in high school, he's not old maybe 27 max now (according to Eugene) but yeah we talked and it was ok it was just a lil odd. Adding to other choice moments of the night there was a couple "dancing" next to us that well, they were um ... okay he straight up f'd her right there, yeah gross, it's something that I didnt need the "pleasure" of being next to. Lets see oh there was this one dude that was staring at lys in this sort of stalker slightly psycho mesmerized look. Crap maybe I shouldnt of reminded you, scary .... But overall a good night, near the end I was danced with this one guy that I thought was on the cute side who knows though maybe it was the lighting, Im kidding lol but he smelled good, he passed the teeth/smile test, and he had a good voice, and he was tall enough for me (if I can wear heels and he isnt shorter and even still a bit taller it's all good) I liked him, only bit of a down side is that he smoked... There was another guy too, this guy was really tall, good dancer, I was comfortable and he also had a nice smile. Both these guys got my number but I know that they probably wont call ( it be nice especially the first one but I seriously doubt it)but it's okay though it was a fun night with my girls and that was the important thing thanks for going along with my craziness and coming with and you know we have to do it again lol. By the way I got home in time to get an hour and a half sleep before getting up again to go to work. That's the only way to do things lol....Good times fun shit.......
posted by Shaistie at 10:45 PM
How things have changed, How nothing's changed
I ran into Mari today. I havent seen her since graduation ( knockin on 4 years, yes it's been that long). It's weird to talk about life, what we've done and what our future plans are. I guess it still hasnt fully sunk in that Im 21 not 16 and how life and time has passed. I've known Mari since 7th grade, I still remember passing notes across the room in Mrs. Stuart's math class thinking we were all slick. Although high school things changed a bit we'd still talk and a bit of the crazyness still went on in French class. Although things changed it' good to know that your doing well and that your on your way to doing what you want to do. She didnt recognize me at first it took her a second. I dont think that I look very different, I still see myself as the same only life and a tinge of time has gone by.
And now I go back to thinking that there are some things that are the same from high school, this feeling, many of my friends. It be great to see all the people that I have crossed my life's path. I'd like to hear that they're all doing great and that their dreams are on the way to being fufilled, that they are happy. That would make me happy.
posted by Shaistie at 12:36 AM
