Stalkers...
Yes Yes I know so why say it right? Where the hell have I been? Everywhere and nowhere....But bear with me as I ramble on a bit, maybe there's no point in explaining things lol let's see where this goes...
Well I have developed a corporate stalker...Huh? you may say(Im counting on the fact that anyone cares lol) but yes I have one now, damn....How it started, a favor... Well December is one of the busiest months of the year at one of my jobs, weirdly so I had a morning off before I an event to cater, well one of my co-workers who also has a second job cant make it to an early morning event in Torrance and asks me to do him a big big favor b/c canceling without replacement would totally suck being that it was the day before. So I agree, I figure that a lil' extra couldnt hurt and so I go...At the event there's this asian guy, early 30's maybe late late 20's who knows, the kind of person with an ambition to have a fortune 500 company but no idea how to get there, that maybe unfair to say I guess but his demeanor wasnt that confident oh well none of that matters...So things were going well, food was great, things looked nice, and most importantly people were happy...Im making sure things were running smoothly, I was asking one of the waiters to check on somethings and so Mr. corporate stalker "causally" comes up and asks what company it was and so on, then he starts asking about me as in do I work ther full-time, if I go to school and whatnot, so he then proceeds to tell me about a company that he has and blah blah blah and ask if I would be intersted, one of the things that is good about my job is that there is opportunity to network ( not flat out make it into a job or reference search but discreetly you know) so he said he'd give me his card but as everyone made there way out, he had left so I figured oh well but then a little bit later he came back and this guy who works there was also there and he asks him if he too would be interested, so he takes our cell numbers and gives us a card and that was that...Im driving to my other job and I glanced down a number I dont recognize so I let it ring---voicemail... 10 minutes later it rings, same number---voicemail, another 10 minutes go by and same number -voicemail...it was him, saying that his 6 o'clock cancelled and it'd be great if we could meet up for dinner and discuss what we had talked about earlier... too insistent, too many calls, did not sound like a "bidness" thing --yikes... the last voicemail said if he didnt hear from me he would try again at another day... Next day another 3 or 4 calls ---does this guy have an office? drinks? dinner? with a nervous hehe during the voicemail--- This went on for a good week and a half...Doesnt end there, see the company was happy with my work and asked if I could come back for a 200 person event they were having, I said yes, guess who I ran into...Damn... So it came down to explaining myself strategically and I thanked him for the opportunity but with my current work schedule ( busy december) and the distance I drove I couldnt blah blah blah, he didnt get it ....another week of calls and now the last one said I'll call you after New Year's to set something up... Excuse me sir I think I was polite...I'm no discrediting myself by saying the following but I dont think that at this point my resumee is that impressive to have someone be so insistent... You wanna know the funny part? The other guy he gave his card to--not one call( I asked when I went back)....
My other jobs have filled a lot of my time... I havent seen much of my friends, Im feeling some withdrawls...I think I just like reminding myself that I dont have a life...
You know what else I was thinking... what I was thinking a year ago...A year ago a few days before New Year's I had given things with R til the end of the year, it was hard because I knew that things wouldnt be solved by then... I think about my emotional state, and how much I was hurting and the mixture of emotions.... But I'm still here, and life does go on, as hard as it was to believe, but it did, Im not going to lie that I do think about him randomly (which I repremand myself for) it's hard to erase that amount of time, but now it doesnt hurt like it did, Things are the way they are and one can only go from there...I can say that Im okay, I have gained back some of the things that brought happiness to my life, and there seems to be a lil extra, K. He seems to want nothing more than to make me smile...
You know what Im looking forward to, my last post of 2004...
posted by Shaistie at 12:29 PM
Neglectful behavior...
The week before finals....Torture... the week of Finals...even more so...pile on a work and one of the busiest months in my line of work, um works(improper engligh hell with my communications professor now lol) but I guess it's a bit of a recipe for mental breakdown, just being burnt. Life threw in a cold to make things interesteing and oh yes for the second fall semester in a row I got my monthly visit... SO I say I hate my life... But now that I look at things I didnt break, I could of, I looked like a crazy person and probably sounded like one as well...But I pushed my limits a lil more and I got everything done, Yes I need to stop patting myself on the back...self-absorbed bastard...lol..
To sum up the rest of my month I think I have fallen into the damn workaholic stage...I've been working doubles and Im soo tired and the lil tiny bit of free time that I can conjur up has been spent trying to squeeze in Christmas shopping...and then if there's anything left over I sleep lol, actually correction there's one more thing taking up my time well thing isn't right I mean person...I do have some mixed feelings but they starting to not stand out so much...details to come lol... for now I need some zzz's.......
P.S hope this keeps you til next time Roxy , now try and get back to work...lol
posted by Shaistie at 1:31 AM
Happy Birthday Brissa!!!
So what if I sort of kidnapped you...wait can that get me in trouble? nah I brought you home safe and sound lol but I hope that you were surprised ( humor me if not but I think so)...Well what can I say that you dont know... I love your friendship.There to support even the craziest things, willing to go out in a minutes notice ( quite literally sorry about those lol)but good times, good times... Thank you for helping me feel not so crazy in my own head, and understanding the ways of my heart. Dearest Bris hope you had the bestest birthday you deserve that and more.... And you know that night I hope our ( yours, big's and mine's) shooting stars worked... but especially yours I hope all your wishes come true... Happy Birthday!!!!
posted by Shaistie at 11:11 PM
