A New Record (Part I) Well it is a new record, almost what three months since I've updated, so yeah I got some time to make up for but Im starting off with a plan though if this turns out to be longer than expected I'll do it in parts ( like my life has sooo much going on huh?) if not it'll just be this one so here I go. Well I started the year off a bit differently than the last, well a lot different actually. As I think back to all the thigs that were going through my head back then I didnt think that I would be at this point now. I didnt see it possible but I was wrong, but it's not always bad to be wrong. Anyway hopefully Im about a year or year and a half from finishing school, and it is a bit scary. I guess the small safety net that existed just having to go to school is slowing disappearing and well the "real world" is becoming a reality. Well not that it hasnt been, but perhaps the comfort of some mistakes was still had with school the "there's always next semester" mentality you can say. Anyway I have a lot to figure out. Granted I have good jobs I know that I will most likely have to make a switch from A to B to pursue opportunities with my degree. Although I am confident in capabilities as a professional at times my insecurtities make this a scary thought. In a sense it's like starting over, from the bottom up especially after where I am now. The future really isnt the future anymore and it's basically here. Im not sure where I'll be in a year but I am comforted knowing that at the very least I'll be alright.
Sometimes I think I try to plan things too much and then others not enough. I didnt plan on feeling anything for anyone anymore, to be honest I didnt really want to. But I guess you cant plan for everything, and how much fun would that be? Not too much I guess we do need the element of surprise every now and then. Well Surpirse...lol. I know I have something special something very different in the best possible way. I never thought that anyone would ever be this way to me ( I guess I lost a lil faith) I couldnt be happier. Sometimes I still catch myself in awe, like wow they still make you? I love it though and I know I have a lot to look forward to...
Well I'll stop here for a quick minute and come back with the second or third parts later, high five everyone....
posted by Shaistie at 2:31 AM
